i need patience

So, I've been thinking a lot lately. And I think I've come to the realization that I need to slow down. I've always been in this big hurry... to graduate, have a real job, and to settle in to a routine. I get restless fast, and I think that if I don't slow down I will just be impatient my whole life for what happens next. I love change, but at the same time I know I need to relax and enjoy where I'm at now. Getting married and moving out has been the funnest part of my life. I can stay out late, bake cookies at midnight, take a run at 2 in the morning, and come and go as I please. Not that my parents were super controlling at home. But I would feel bad staying out late because I knew they would wait up for me and I did not want to be rude. But now that I've been on my own for a while, I think I should focus more on having a routine rather than trying to move on to the next part of my life.

My new years resolution.... kind of more like a goal since resolutions never seem to stick... is to try and be more wifely. Last quarter in school was the best quarter I've had I got good grades, made the dean's list, and was able to join omicron delta epsilon (an economics honor society). Sadly, because I was so involved with school, I didn't cook, clean, or do other wifely things very often. This quarter has been quite different so far, and I am doing my best to try and maintain it. I have been cooking for cale more often, as well as trying to keep up on the house work. I thought it would bee more tedious than it is and that it would feel like a chore, but it is actually quite enjoyable and I know cale enjoys it too. It was so sweet-- monday, when I was mopping the bathroom floor, he hugged me from behind and told me he loves me, and that I look so cute when I act like such a wife. He also said that when he goes to work, sometimes the guys ask what his 'wifey' made for dinner. It probably sounds silly, but I like that they tease him.

So with all that in mind, I think I've realized that I should not be in such a hurry, rather, I should focus on what I have now to make it the best it can be. I will keep making adjustments and find contentment with where I'm at, not being anxious to get where I someday want to go.